If you’re a parent, or caretaker, then you know you are a multi-tasker by nature. Day in and day out, we have at least ten plates spinning in the air, hoping none will fall and break. I am a human being. I make mistakes when parenting, when dealing with stressful situations, and more recently, I notice I have a hard time containing myself when I am feeling stressed. I do not want to be that mom who takes out her stress on her children, and luckily, self awareness kicked in and I knew I needed to do something.
All day long, I tell people how important it is make health and wellness a part of their life (not everything, because, ice cream) and here I am, burning that candle at both ends, with little to no flame left.
Enter Tara. I thought I was going to help her with some wellness goals, but little did I know she was going to open my eyes to something I did not know I needed, and I am so grateful our paths connected once again.
I have known Tara for years. We both worked with teenagers in residential programs, and both knew many of the same people, but I had not seen her for some time. We began conversing again when I became a coach, and I started following her journey as a new yoga instructor. Yoga has been something I have wanted to do more of, but I have yet to get to one of her classes (because children). She recently shared that she was Reiki ceritifed, and I was intrigued. I knew Reiki had something to do with energy, but that was it.
I remember when my Nana was dying, we went down to Radiology together at the hospital, and there was a sign for Reiki. It expressed the healing powers Reiki offers in the advertisement. I glanced it over, and didn’t give it a second thought for another ten years.
I decided to message Tara inquiring about Reiki, because truthfully, my energy is OFF. Lack of sleep, a 6 year old who is still adjusting to her new life as a big sister, a baby who loves to cry, and other outside factors have totally thrown me for a loop. I have the most important job in the world right now, and that is to be their mother, and frankly, I was starting to feel like I SUCKED at this job.
I vowed to work on myself this year, and although I have made progress, it is more than just eating better and exercise. It is more than making dinner and folding laundry and cleaning my house. It is so much more than that.
My SPIRIT. I need to take care of my spirit.
So, I made an appointment with Tara, not knowing what to expect. I walked into her small studio, and put trust in her to help begin the healing process. Since giving birth, I have not rested, and I have been on the go, but I am okay with that. Unfortunately, I think my spirit has suffered (I shopped at Target and did 3 loads of laundry the day I came home from the hospital, because, hormones).
I thought about cancelling because I had an awful stomach ache and a head cold, but I went because I knew I needed it. I knew I would be making a mistake if I did not go.
When I stepped into her studio, I knew I had arrived at the right place. Quiet, welcoming, quaint. I could smell essential oils and hear calming music playing. Intuition told me this was going to help me.
Tara then explained she would place her hands on me, and hover over the seven chakras. I honestly didn’t know a damn thing about the seven chakras, but was willing to learn. Here is a quick crash course
- Root chakra — base of the spine — red
- Sacral chakra — just below the navel — orange
- Solar Plexus chakra — stomach area — yellow
- Heart chakra — center of the chest — green
- Throat chakra — base of the throat — blue
- Third Eye chakra — forehead, just above area between the eyes — indigo
- Crown chakra — top of the head — violet
Tara has this visual hanging in her studio
Tara was careful to guide me in my breathing to start, and to have me focus on my breathing throughout the duration on my session. When my mind wandered, I would try to focus back to my breathing.
Tara began to recite calming passages, and one thing really stuck.
She said “Let go of things that no longer serve her.” I didn’t say anything, but I know I have a laundry list, and was hoping this experience would surely help me let go of whatever negative energy was within me.
As the session progressed, she focused a lot on my stomach, my hips, And my shoulders. I have always felt like I carry most of my “burden” on my hips and my stomach has grown two children, so that made sense to me. Car seats, backpacks, briefcases, babies, groceries, strength training, stress, well those shoulders need a lot of love.
At the end of our time together, Tara recited a poem that I had heard only once before, and I just felt like it spoke to me more than anything has in such a LONG time.
The poem was, “She Let Go” by Reverend Safire Rose.
“She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go……No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.”
I thought I would cry, but instead, I smiled. I felt like this was meant to be, like in a sense, it was a spiritual awakening. I have had spiritual awakenings before, but they were private, and inexplicable. I felt like that is what happens as humans. If we have the chance to have an awakening, it’s special, it’s personal, and it’s indescribable.
My stomach ache was gone. My headache was too. I felt calm, I felt rested. I spent the some time with Tara chatting about my experience and how I felt a great deal of energy around my hips, and it could be where I carry most of my stress, or may be an area where I need to work on more.
Tara recently started focusing on trying new things like me, as she fell in love with yoga, and became a teacher, and a Reiki practitioner. I know becoming a coach has opened my eyes to stepping outside of my comfort zone, and I am so grateful I spent the time with Tara, because I feel like I got exactly what I needed.
Reconnecting with old friends, learning from each other, and trying to “let go” of any negative energy is something I will continue to try to do. I only hope I stay in this path, because I am beginning to feel more purpose and gratitude for the direction my life has taken. Thank you Tara, as you have given me what I didn’t know I needed.
Try new things. You’ll be better for it.